“You can spend your whole life
building, something from nothing. One
storm can come and blow it all away… do it anyway!” – Martina McBride
In the midst of
hardship or struggles, I often find myself thinking, “Why am I even doing
this?” Or the all-too-famous, “Is this
even worth it?” Well, I am not sure if I
know the answer to these questions that infiltrate my thoughts. It seems as if many times when we work so
hard on something, it is not appreciated, respected, or even acknowledged. But, do we do things to get recognition? Or do we do things because we know in our
hearts that it is the right thing to do?
This
is a question that I have battled with for most of my teenage years. When you are young, there are no pressures to
“fit in” or “do what everyone else is doing”.
As I grew, and the pressures of society, and life in general, became
stronger, I had to look deep into myself and decide how I was going to handle
these oncoming pressures. Would I cave
and succumb to the pressures of my peers?
Or would I stay true to who I am and what I knew was right, simply
because it was?
In
staying true to myself and my beliefs, I knew that I was subjecting myself to
some ridicule. I am not the kid who goes
out and parties on the weekends. I am not
the kid who is ok with getting a “B” in a class. And I am definitely not the kid who will do
something that I do not feel comfortable doing.
It is because of this that I was defined as the “goody-good”. Although I am now a proud owner of this
title, I haven’t always been. I remember
times when I questioned if I was missing out on life and my high school years
because I was so afraid of doing something wrong or shameful. But now that I am at the brink of my years as
a “child”, I can realize the blessing that I gave to myself by staying true to
who I am. I can now proudly say that I
tried to be the best person that I could be!
I
use the word “tried” for a very specific reason. Not one person on this earth can say that
they are perfect or have acted perfectly.
Obviously I have screwed up a time or two and have been directed off
course. But, that is so insignificant in
the scheme of life. I have chosen the
title “Do it Anyway” for my blog because whatever way in which you choose to
live your life, do it with your whole heart.
There will, without a doubt, be people who will do everything in their
power to change you, but stay true to you and do it anyway!
Love Always,
Kylie K. <3
Kylie, I really enjoyed reading your blog. I think that being “you” is very difficult to do while in high school. I myself have struggled with this same problem but have fallen into the wrong side. You know, “everyone else is doing it,” always pops into one’s mind and that’s the decision changer. But as I get older, and have Jaken to think about I believe I have sorta found myself. I say sorta because I know I will struggle with many decisions as I get older but if I stick to my morals and dig deep within my self I will make the right decision for myself and Jaken. Thank you for sharing this, it really made me think about who I am, and what I believe is right and wrong.
ReplyDeleteI really enjoyed the idea of breaking away from the pressures of your peers that you showed. Being bold and doing what you know is right is an amazing concept and tends to be extremely difficult sometimes, as I’m sure you know. It’s inspiring to see your commitment to being a “goody good” as you put it. Even though there are those out there who would look down upon it. I know from personal experience that feeling of fear and it’s nice to know that I’m not alone in this aspect. Sometimes it seems that everyone else has it easy, but there’s always more to a person that what you can see.
ReplyDeleteI’m glad that you have committed to stay so strong and hope that you continue trying to be the best person that you could be. For that’s all that really matters in the grand aspect of things. To “try” to be the best we can be. I also love that title of yours. “Do it anyway”. That was a great song and it had a great message. Thank you :)
I definitely feel you when it comes to doing things for recognition. For most of my life I was doing things because it'd make my parents proud, or it would make me a good person, or something like that. But around last year I decided that I need to do things because I want to do them. Granted I'm not going to do bad things, and I still do things because it'd make people proud, but I do realize that my top priority is doing things to make me happy, and to make my life as worth it as possible. The main thing I had to learn was that what people think of me is really not that important, so long as we can live together in neutrality. Good on ya Kylie!
ReplyDeleteI understand where you are coming from, Kylie. It can be hard to stay true to who you are in high school. There are so many expectations from not only parents but “friends” as well. Some of our peers constantly try to steer us of course with “fun”. And it can be hard to say no because you want to fit in. In the end though, it is a wise choice. By gaining this restraint you can fight through the pressures of everyday life. Reading you blog has showed me that you have grown into a wonderful young woman. I’m glad that you have discovered who you are and stuck by those principals. :)
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