I have lived most of my life worried. Worried about if I was going to get an “A” in
English. Worried about doing anything
potentially risky because of the thought that my parents would somehow find
out. Worried about if my boyfriend was
cheating on me. Worried about if I was
making my parents proud. These worries
literally occupied my entire life. From
the time I would wake up until the time I was finally able to fall asleep, I
was worried. These constant worries
reaped several consequences on my life.
My relationships with people suffered because I thought negatively about
every situation. I was never able to
fully focus on what I needed to because every other thought was running through
my head. And, probably most importantly,
I lost trust in nearly everything and everyone.
Obviously,
there are a few factors that have led me to this. One of these reasons being relentless
unfaithfulness. Just like many of us, I
have been, and I guess still am, a fool for love. I have fallen into the disastrous cycle of
being lied to, cheated on, and heartbroken all for the name of love. This caused me substantial amounts of
worry. Questions like, “What did I do
wrong?”, and, “Why am I not good enough?” would too often run through my mind. I so desperately wanted to be something
special and mean something great to him that I, more or less, tried too much
impress him and forgot how to love him.
I have
prayed long and hard about how to overcome my constant worrying and move past
it. For the longest time I could not
figure it out. I couldn’t figure out why
I had this problem of overthinking every situation and worrying too much about
literally everything! But, now, at
probably the most crucially time in my life, I believe I have found the answer;
love more, worry less.
This is the most
important lesson that I have learned thus far in my life. It speaks so much truth and encompasses every
situation. I don’t know how I could have
been so blind to this for so long. It is
so simple, yet so overwhelmingly true.
We get too caught up in the hustle and bustle of our everyday lives that
we forget the most important commandment that we were given; to love. I challenge us all to focus everyday on love. To channel our energy towards showering love
onto those in our lives who mean the most to us. I also urge you to join me in the challenge
to drop your worries. I will be the first
to admit that this seems like a daunting task, but what do we have to
lose? This section of our life is very
closely nearing its end, and right now is our time to live with no worries or
regrets. Although it is difficult and
scary, love more and worry less anyway!
Love Always,
Kylie K.
